The noise in my head.

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As I sit here amidst the chatter of my daily life, a whirlwind of thoughts swirls in my head. "Am I doing the right thing? Will I actually pull this trip off?" Excitement mixes with anxiety and guilt.

Leaving home is never easy, especially for a mother. It feels like I’m distancing myself from parts of my heart—my kids and grandkids.

Is it possible to prioritize my own needs and still be a good mother? Am I being selfish for wanting to take this time to reconnect with my youngest daughter, even if it means leaving others behind? Studies show that 73% of mothers feel guilt when prioritizing their self-care, and WOW, I am certainly among them.

My body has taken a beating over the last decade—stress affects us both physically and mentally. I wonder, "Will this added stress hinder my healing journey?" Traveling comes with its own set of challenges: packing, navigating flights, and adjusting to new environments. Will all this overshadow my goals?

This trip is not only about reconnecting with my daughter; it’s a step toward healing my heart, learning of my Jewish roots, commitments to find healthier lifestyles, and making life long friends and memories.

Each step I take toward this adventure is a reminder that despite the noise in my head, I am making progress. I’m taking command of my journey—a journey filled with hope, love, and so much potential.

My little Pumpkin, August..